‘Throbbing’– Something that can be described as cringey/bit too keen or even possibly irritating/annoying. I have had one of those days. ‘Today has been proper throbbing’
The reason for this day being…a wee bit gash, is due to my recent bad news from a job application i had submitted a month ago. Now, i left the Navy in September with certain plans in mind and a clear understanding of what i needed academically for this new job i wanted.
Unfortunately, almost 16 years after leaving school i have just found out that my math grade…is below the requirement…bugger.
Now i would just like to stand up right now and make a confession here folks…
My name is Nicky…and i cannot for love nor money ‘do’ Math.
I truly cannot even begin to fathom fractions, decimals are dicks and don’t even get me started on percentages. It’s not like i have always been rubbish at Math, in fact at one point in High school i was in the right class for me, everyone was at the same stage, we were all progressing at the same rate, no one was being pushed too far or left behind, the teacher was really good as well and for once i genuinely felt happy and comfortable in a subject i was always weak at.
So where did it all go wrong i hear you ask?
Well apparently i was doing so well that i got pushed up into a more advanced class…great, absolutely…erm…great. Now don’t get me wrong i was proper chuffed to bits that the teacher felt i was good enough to get into the top class, it gave me a little boost you know?
Unfortunately, my ‘chuffedness’ wasn’t to last long, as i found myself slowly, little by little falling behind in a class i was just not ready for. Eventually leading me to lose all confidence and get put down into an even lower class than what i started off in! To top it all off, if i had remained in that original class…i would have eventually gotten the grade that i am now 16 years later having to study for!!!
Hindsight is an incredible thing, i heard it often throughout my teenage years but never really took much notice of it, i imagine a few other folks have had that same experience.
Now something i will always do (and i believe the military ingrained this into me) is if i ever mess up or make a mistake, then i’ll always be the first to hold my hand up and say ‘yep, that was my fault, i cocked up!’ I would never expect someone else to take the blame for my failings. So whilst i don’t blame the school or the teachers (who were just doing their job) i just wish that i had been either kept in that original class or returned to it after it was obvious i couldn’t keep up with the workload.
This is where hindsight comes in…
As an adult, there is a helluva lot i would like to say to my ‘High school self’!
That may be the understatement of the year! (I will probably go more in depth in a later blog about this scenario as i think i’ll get a good rant out of it!)
I would say to teenage me…
First off, put that down it’s not yours.
I would tell me that i need to speak up, i know it’s difficult and doesn’t feel right or natural but you need to tell the teacher you are struggling otherwise they wont be able to help you.
Secondly i am aware that Math is your/our weakest subject, that is why you need to concentrate MORE not shy away and keep quiet when the teacher asks questions and you just hope the bell hurries up and rings.
This subject is what will cause you the most problems in future, most if not every decent job nowadays requires a decent level of maths grade, just because you have the minimum required to get into the Navy doesn’t mean you should stop there and rest on your laurels, because believe it or not at some point you are going to leave the navy to pursue a different career choice and that choice needs a better grade than the navy did! (You’ll still have a blast in the navy though!)
I’m not saying these things lightly or for fun, believe me Math is the last subject i would relate ‘fun’ with, but unfortunately employers look fondly on certain grade levels…never mind the fact that i have completed 16 successful years as an adult (still alive and kicking!) with 7 of those years as an air engineering technician working on Naval aircraft (very skilled and technical job) without ever needing to use anything more than basic maths skills…
This is not me being ‘down’ on math or anything but realistically speaking in all my time as an adult in the big bad world, i have never needed to use any math more advanced than basic adding/subtracting/multiply/divide. Percentages maybe at a stretch but certainly not pythagorus, what is the area of the circle, formula etc
Now before anyone jumps on me for saying that last bit let me just clear this up: Yes i understand why that may be useful for other folk, say someone who is interested in pursuing a career as an architect maybe or some sort of engineering, but myself personally have never required such skills.
But i am digressing…
An important point to make is that while you’re at school, you have all the time in the world to study for Math, you don’t have a job or a house or any money worries to fret over, that’s what the parental type folks do. You are being given all this time during the day to get this stuff squared away, yes you have social things on in the evenings or weekends every so often but you still have all this opportunity to study and get good grades and it’s practically right there on a silver platter for you. ‘Adult me’ has to think about work…to earn money…to pay for a car, a house next year, everyday things and so on and so forth.
So now, young teenage me, here i am 16 years later feeling absolutely gutted that the job i so desperately want is now set back a good 2 years whilst i try and get this damn grade improved at college.
Yes folks, hindsight is a hell of a thing,
On the plus side i now have 2 years to train for the fitness test!
SWINGS AND ROUNDABOUTS! 🙂
Off for a brew…